Friday, March 27, 2009

EDD

Three years ago today was technically my EDD (Estimated Due Date). In some ways, it's silly to even consider it as a date at all--who gives birth on their due date, especially with twins? But it's yet another milestone and one I can never forget. My girls were 11 weeks old on their EDD. Instead of newborn pictures on that day, I have this sweet scene.



That's obviously Katie on the left with the nasal cannula.

I seem to have a lot of pregnant friends right now. Not so many in "real" life, but a lot of good friends I know online, many of whom I have met in person, too. One announced her pregnancy today, via Facebook status, and I am thrilled for her. She has had an incredibly hard road following the birth of her first child, and there was a big question whether she'd even be able to have another. Her news put a huge smile on my face.

And then it got me crying. Such is life. I think I've written here before that I don't really want to have any more children. My family is absolutely complete with my two incredible daughters. I feel like we are completely in balance and have no real desire to throw that off.

But I still feel a little sad thinking about never being pregnant again. And somehow seeing so many people have second children brings that out more than those having their first. I really really loved being pregnant. I was sick for most of the first 15 weeks, and exhausted, but I really relished all those strange feelings. Part of that was probably because once we found out it was twins, I knew it was a one-shot deal. So I enjoyed my growing belly, the OB appointments, the ultrasounds, the planning--all of it. It was entirely novel and special and then it was cut short.

If you're only going to be pregnant once, you should at least manage a full 9 months.

3 comments:

Zoo said...

Many hugs, my dear <3

(random, but is the newly pregnant lady someone I know? *nosy* :P )

Melanie said...

Hi Betseeee, thanks for stopping by my gardening blog. I hope you get to come by with the girls once we're in bloom here. By the way, I have two girls too, one in college and one in high school. The first was 5 weeks early (surprise!!! her foot was sticking out when I got to the hospital) the second was just over four years (and a miss) later but she went past her due date. I think I went crazier with the full term pregnancy. Come out already!

Shukr said...

are you sure never again??

sometimes i honestly believe it's good to throw caution to the wind and just 'be'.....however painful or joyful the results

xx